Wednesday, February 26, 2014

I'm off to Europe. I have something to take care of there. I'll post details later because my plane leaves in 20 minutes.

Tori if you see this, I left a note in my room explaining everything, and I'm sorry.

Wednesday, February 5, 2014

Goodbye

I heard a yawn and the quiet noise of footsteps as Alice walked into the kitchen. I continued to watch the pan, waiting for the perfect moment to flip the pancake I was making. "Good morning...." I heard her say with a sigh. I looked over my shoulder to see Alice sitting, her head resting on the table. I flipped the pancake, and heard someone running down the stairs. I saw Tori walk into the kitchen dressed for work.

I smiled, "Tori, you're just in time for breakfast." I set a pancake on the plate and poured more batter into the skillet. I turned to see Tori sitting in one of the chairs, quickly tying her shoes.

"Sorry, Skye I don't have time to si-" She began to say before I set down a bacon, egg, and cheese sandwich, wrapped in a napkin on the table. She finished tying her shoes and stood up. She gave me a peck on the cheek with a quick "thanks" before grabbing the sandwich and her car keys, she went for the door and rubbed the top of Alice's head. "See ya kiddo." and with that she left.

I set down a plate of pancakes in front of Alice who mumbled something that I assumed was thanks. I sat down and took a sip of my coffee as I watched Alice slowly begin to wake up as she ate her pancakes.

"You're leaving already?"

I saw Roy fasten the straps on his backpack. "I have to Skye, I already told Alice goodbye."

"If you're ever back in town...you know you're welcome here." He smiled sadly at me. 

"Skye, this is goodbye. I'm afraid we won't be seeing each other again." To me he sounded defeated, as if he had simply given up. I found myself growing slightly angry.

"So that's it? You've just given up? Your just going to go find somewhere to die quietly?" I look back at it now and realize that this sounded harsh. 

He chuckled, not the reaction I had expected. He grinned at me, "Of course not. I'm going to fight until I can't anymore, and when I go, I'll go swinging." 

I looked at him in disbelief. "Aren't you scared?" 

"Honestly?" I nodded, "Fuck yeah I am. But that doesn't mean I'm going to spend the rest of my life hiding. Would that increase my life span? Maybe. But that's just not my style." He had accepted it, he was accepting the fact that he was going die. Yet he kept walking, moving forward. I looked down trying to hide the tears building in my eyes.

"What about us?" It came out slightly choked. "You're just going to leave us behind? The rest of us runners?" It sounded selfish, and I knew it was, I could tell that he was tired.

He chuckled, setting a hand on my head. "Skye, it's because of runners like you, and Med, and all the others, that I can keep moving. I'm not afraid to leave this fight to all of you, because I know that you're all strong, and smart." He laughed again, "Hell of lot smarter than me." He lifted his hand and turned to walk away. I watched through blurred vision as he kept walking, he stopped for a moment. "Take good care of her alright?" 

I nodded even though he couldn't see me, "You got it." 

He lifted his hand "Goodbye." 

"...Skye?" I blinked and looked at Alice who looked concerned. I reached up and felt that my cheeks were wet. I shook my head, feeling embarrassed.

"It's nothing, sweetie." With that she went back to eating her pancakes, glancing up at me with concern every now and then. I simply stared at my coffee.

'I'll do my best Roy, I promise you that.'