Obligations are horrible things. Yet, it feels as though obligation has fueled everything we've done since we began running. We run because we feel obligated to live, and waiting around would surely mean death. We stuck around Tori, a proxy who could be ordered to kill us any day now, because our love makes us feel obligated to "protect" her. We took in an undead child, a child of the cold, because we were made to feel obligated by our friend who is probably dead at this point.
And if you've noticed the use of 'us' and 'our', don't pay it any mind. I use these terms because of habit and nothing more. It's been two years, and Skye is still broken by his own choice. Still hiding and yet as much as a coward as he is, I will admit that he is stubborn. It only took me a week to notice that even though I was mostly free to do as I wished, it was almost as if what was left of Skye had set rules that I had to follow. As far as I've noticed, none of it has been too difficult, but it is annoying sticking around when all I want to do is leave.
I still take care of Alice, I still clean, I still make the meals, and I still work a part time job at the library. All out of obligation. I've tried to break Skye far enough to let me finally be rid of all of this, but it has yielded nothing even after two years. Tori doesn't really talk to me, having given up on forcing the subject of Skye's "imprisonment" after about a year. And as much as it's hurt him to leave her by herself for the most part, he knows better than to actually try to take control back.
I've tried everything. Even to the point of trying to get Tori to kick me out. I treat her like shit, if I actually respond to her presence it's with nothing but irritation. But as frustrated as she's been, as many times as she's threatened to kick me out or kill me, Tori eventually just shrugs everything off and tells me that she still needs help "Paying the bills" and she "doesn't want Alice to lose another family member."
Alice strangely enough treats me just like Skye. Even when I try to explain to the little brat that I'm not Skye and that Skye is basically dead, she flashes me this infuriating little smile telling me that I'm silly and that of course I'm Skye, just a different part.
In other news, about a month after I took over, Kris dropped back by. The enigmatic rune teacher decided I would have to do, since I've taken Skye's place, she's began teaching me. I can make runes that do things that you wouldn't even believe, and under her guidance, run of the mill proxies are barely an issue anymore. I don't think that flower maidens will be either, but I haven't gotten the chance to test this because none have bothered us since the last one a couple of years ago.
I'm not actually sure I had a reason for making a post after so long, but maybe I'll actually start updating again, or maybe I won't.
I don't know.
Okay bye now.
