Progress as of yet? None whatsoever.

She looked at me after I had pinned her, after I had snapped and harmed her.

"And I said I'd help you with the voices right?" That you did. "We can work on it, alright? I want to help you." and I want to believe that you can. This reaction had surprised me for many reasons. Kids in the past that have witnessed my....fits, we'll just call them fits. Anyways kids in the past that have witnessed my fits tend to avoid me afterwards. Any chance of friendship long gone. I would then be avoided like the plague (with one exception I suppose in the form of Katrina).

I found myself wondering how she hoped to help me. Tori could not even begin to understand what it was like. To hear these voices in your head, could she? It is a possibility I suppose, but how? She is not schizophrenic I assume. She does not have any signs of multiple personality disorder, that I have seen anyways. So how then, would she understand? While at first seeming to be rather simple, and easy to read. I have found that my hostess is rather enigmatic. 

Early that morning she came to fetch me from my room or "cave" as she has began calling it. She went about going over many ways one can ignore the voices in their head. The first idea one that I was to work on was....

"Meditation." She stated. I gave her a strange look.

"Meditation? Does that really work?" I asked with doubt clear in my voice. I did not know if something as simple as meditation would work.

She just stared at me. "Are you doubting me?" she asked.

I looked away quickly, blood rushing to my face. "N-no of c-course not!" I said louder then I had meant to. I looked back to see she was smiling.

"Good, now cross your legs and shut your eyes." I did as I was instructed. "Now I want you to clear your mind. It may be hard at first, but it shouldn't be too hard for you." I focused on doing as I was told. I remembered once reading about meditation. I did not know much but I did know that it was said to help if you focused on something, on anything. I chose what people chose most often. I focused on my breathing.

After what felt like hours (in reality it was only about 20 minutes) I felt something change. I opened my eyes to find that I was in a rather peculiar new environment. The sky was blue not a cloud in sight, nor was there any sun. As I stood to my feet I noticed they felt wet. I looked down to notice ripples in what seemed to be water. It felt as though I was standing on solid ground except I could see none underneath the water.

I looked around confused to where I was at. Was this supposed to happen I wondered. No....Tori would have surely warned me. I began walking in a random direction, trying to find anything at this point. There was nothing as far as my eyes could see until I spotted it. It was a mirror. It stood straight up nothing about it was out of the ordinary. I walked towards it, feeling drawn to it.

I could see my reflection in the mirror. Still nothing out of the ordinary it would seem. That was until I saw my eyes. I froze when I saw my rather unusual eyes. They were the same color as always. But they were bloodshot and they contained mirth. This mirth was mirth that only one who had been consumed by madness was capable of having. I took a small step backwards from shock.

"Finally payed me a visit I see?" This other me said. His voice was the same as mine if a bit raspier. Quieter.

"Who.....?"

"Am I? That is a rather simple question with a simple answer my boy. I am you." I was surprised by this answer, he continued a frown finding a way on to his face. "or rather the true you."

"I don't understand."

"I represent all of your true desires. Your need for the hunt, your lust for blood." My eyes widened at this statement.

"B-but I don't l-like to hurt people..." God damn stuttering.

"Oh but you do. You simply repress these urges and from them I was born." He grinned wildly. "You continue to lie to yourself." At this point the grin on his face threatened to split his face.

"Stop..." I begged weakly.

"You remember don't you? That joy you felt....must I remind you?" after he said this I grabbed my head in pain as began to see flashing images.

"Stop..."

"The fear in there eyes."

All I could do was continue begging him to stop.

Skye

"There agony filled screams as you broke each of there bones....." His voice was a mere whisper at this point as I fell to my knees clutching my head.

Skye

"Who will be next I wonder? I can not wait to see. Until next time boy." He chuckled darkly.

SKYE!

My eyes snapped open and I once again found myself in Tori's house. I saw with my wide opens a very concerned looking Tori. "Skye what...?" I tried my best but I couldn't stop them. I felt the tears begin to run down my cheeks. So many painful memories. Ones that I would never forget. I froze when I felt Tori hug me. After a few seconds though I began sobbing again my face buried in her shoulder as she rubbed circles into my back. As I look back at this now I am still terribly embarrassed.

When I finally stopped crying I stood up suddenly realizing what had just happened. I felt my face heat up, she looked up at me.

"Are you alright now?" She asked concerned. I found it a chore to form words at this point. 

"Y-yes th-thank you.....I-I'm s-sorry." Still not looking at her.

She chuckled. "It's fine kid. Sometimes you just need to cry while not fun at all and being the primary endorser of Headaches and Being Really Tired It's unhealthy to bottle up your emotions, ya know?" She frowned. "What happened anyways?" I still refused to look at her. The flashing images came back, all the things that I had done. I shook my head.

I looked down. "N-nothing.." I turned quickly and walked away not wanting to think about it anymore. I walked into my room locking it and collapsed on to my bed. I sighed in frustration. I've been hiding in my room ever since. 

Until next time, the always embarrassed Skye.